i'm bored right now and my mind is thinking about all the people i've had crushes on in my lifetime. i did this once before with a friend and it felt completely liberating putting it all out there. many of these people, especially later in life crushes know how i felt/feel about them but the ones who don't mostly aren't in my life anymore. oh well, here's my list:
-robert jowers (elementary school-6th grade)
-ronnie (german guy, don't know his last name)
-monica chase (early 2009-present CURRENT)
-julia evans (some time during 2008, i forget)
-angela britt (dec 2007-forever probz)
-jonna (german hottie, mutual crush! don't know her last name yet CURRENT)
-tierney grace butler (couple years ago)
-kayla hudson (senior year of high school/crush reappeared in the past year)
-krissy rains (friend form high school, my first out friend)
-bessie sycip (moreso me thinking she is just super rad and amazingly adorable than a traditional "crush" i guess...but me and emie talked about this and if we had to marry one of our friends, she would be it)
-holly chernobyl (last year. while i no longer have those feelings for her, dammmmnnn that girl is and always will be fine as hell)
-nicci brown (a year ago or so)
-whitney knox (one of my closest friends, she's also just really hot)
-matisse fletcher (don't really have a crush, but just think she's hot)
-tobias friedli (also just really fucking hot)
-irene (my "first. amazing lady, beautiful, smart, talented, all of the above. i think i had just turned 19)
now i'm smiling thinking about all these people i have around me. all of whom are so wonderful.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Last night
Victoria has a new crush. She thinks I'm awesome too. She says, "I'll see you again SOON, won't I?" "Of course," I say. And I gave her my phone number.
Wish on those eyelashes for me!
Wish on those eyelashes for me!
Friday, April 24, 2009
images
a picture of me dressed up
a picture of me that is old, but one of my favorites
a picture of me and who i live with
a picture of me during the summer
a picture of me with a parent or two
a picture of me in my room
a picture of me very drunk
a picture of me on my birthday
a picture of me on my favorite holiday
the oldest picture i have of me in digital form
a picture of me in one of my favorite outfits
a picture of me making a funny face
a picture of me showing off a new haircut
a picture of me being my true self
a picture of a time in my life that i wish wasn't over
a picture of a time in my life that i am glad is over
a picture of me being ridiculous
a picture of me with my oldest friend(s)
a picture of me with my newest friend(s)
a picture of me that i didn't know was being taken
a picture of me when i was anything but happy, even if i was smiling and doing my best to hide it
a picture of myself that i like
a picture of myself with some one i love
a picture of me with a sibling (well, closest thing to it)
a picture of me with something i love
a picture of me living my life how i would like to live everyday
a picture of when my life was changing
a picture of me and one of my talents
a picture that makes my heart smile
a picture that makes my heart hurt
a picture of me that is old, but one of my favorites
a picture of me and who i live with
a picture of me during the summer
a picture of me with a parent or two
a picture of me in my room
a picture of me very drunk
a picture of me on my birthday
a picture of me on my favorite holiday
the oldest picture i have of me in digital form
a picture of me in one of my favorite outfits
a picture of me making a funny face
a picture of me showing off a new haircut
a picture of me being my true self
a picture of a time in my life that i wish wasn't over
a picture of a time in my life that i am glad is over
a picture of me being ridiculous
a picture of me with my oldest friend(s)
a picture of me with my newest friend(s)
a picture of me that i didn't know was being taken
a picture of me when i was anything but happy, even if i was smiling and doing my best to hide it
a picture of myself that i like
a picture of myself with some one i love
a picture of me with a sibling (well, closest thing to it)
a picture of me with something i love
a picture of me living my life how i would like to live everyday
a picture of when my life was changing
a picture of me and one of my talents
a picture that makes my heart smile
a picture that makes my heart hurt
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Times are a changin', that's for damn sure.
Because of a friend's recent post, I have been inspired to write today all about myself.
A couple people have recently brought it to my atenntion that yes, I have changed. For the better or worse who fucking knows. All I know is I have outgrown a lot of things. I have come to be confident in who I am and who I want to surround myself with. I know now more than ever that I am the happiest I have ever been. Not to say things can't go up from here, but I realize now that everything in my life happened to affect me in one way or another.
Those damn surveys everyone posts and I actually do read sometimes, they always ask you for your 'greatest regret' in life. Well, what if I don't have one?? I sure as fuck can't think of anything more significant than, 'Man I wish I had bought oranges at the market this morning...' to call a great regret of mine.
People are so worried about having those awkward conversations with people they care about. Well I am not afraid of those conversations because they do one of two things, 1. make friendships stronger, and longer, or 2. they help friendships to wither peacefully. I used to get so sad about the friendships I have lost or that were't nurtured enough to keep alive. It's ok though. I will always treasure the love for eachother that we have, or had at one point. People do change. I like to think it's a good thing.
A couple people have recently brought it to my atenntion that yes, I have changed. For the better or worse who fucking knows. All I know is I have outgrown a lot of things. I have come to be confident in who I am and who I want to surround myself with. I know now more than ever that I am the happiest I have ever been. Not to say things can't go up from here, but I realize now that everything in my life happened to affect me in one way or another.
Those damn surveys everyone posts and I actually do read sometimes, they always ask you for your 'greatest regret' in life. Well, what if I don't have one?? I sure as fuck can't think of anything more significant than, 'Man I wish I had bought oranges at the market this morning...' to call a great regret of mine.
People are so worried about having those awkward conversations with people they care about. Well I am not afraid of those conversations because they do one of two things, 1. make friendships stronger, and longer, or 2. they help friendships to wither peacefully. I used to get so sad about the friendships I have lost or that were't nurtured enough to keep alive. It's ok though. I will always treasure the love for eachother that we have, or had at one point. People do change. I like to think it's a good thing.
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